collect glee.

flaws designed just for him,
obsessions to erase failure
and collect glee.
Complete restraint against
angst; he'll lead you to sanctuary.
perceived as royal trend,
lovely lashes blinking away
textures to rough to bare.
He only sees what isn't there,
flicker of hope gleams from you all.
He'll be our saviour, he'll meet
and exceed.
Seems like love.
falling falling falling falling
he'll catch you.
bombard our world and raid us with
something precious.
obsessions to erase failure
and collect glee.
He'll be here forever
only you cannot see.


- feel blue, think green, shine yellow
adventure queen.

Everyday is Exactly the Same- Nine Inch Nails

I'm writing on a little piece of paper

I'm hoping someday you might find

Well I'll hide it behind something

They won't look behind

I'm still inside here

A little bit comes bleeding through

I wish this could have been any other way

But I just don't know, I don't know what else I can do

words left untouched

Words for words,
Traded routines,
l borrow lifestyles

and sink into temporary grief.

Not only writing to please
but for future.
Cracks formed in pavement;
my words will hide.
But I'll speak to those who
find all treasure not in greed
but in pure coincidence.
Found in rich soil; words left untouched.

Unread messages on count
I find comfort in the sole image
of you screaming.
Not in pain but in
emphasis.
Not in hate but in
spite.

You'll find me.
Not tangible
but in script.

And you'll recognize the possibility of slipping into foreign sensation.

-feel blue, think green, shine yellow
adventure queen.

I'll be seeing you

Eyes only meant to perceive beauty.

Distorted oasis; completely irrelevant

To where you need to be.

To grasp onto something,

Fighting for life, but

A marvel to see struggling

To see you; remember that face.

Organic hope, once lost,

And nearly found.

Believing in all that

Shines, in all that

Constantly energizes today.

Blind to hollow days.

Careless to quick fixes.

Prescribe me a full blown

Rush of silence. Full of

Symphonies of tears and cheers.

Dizzy with intelligence.

Await a passenger

In this continuing plot.

I’ll be seeing you.

I’ll definitely be seeing you.

-feel blue, think green, shine yellow

adventure queen

Underground Railroad EST. 1986

Flyer from 1986, when the band was just small in L.A

Wet Sand- Red Hot Chili Peppers

My shadow side so amplified

Keeps coming back dissatisfied
Elementary son but it's so...

My love affair with everywhere
Was innocent why do you care
Someone start the car
Time to go... You're the best I know

My sunny side has up and died
I'm betting that when we collide
The universe will shift into a low

there is you, and then the rest

I fear being like everyone I hate, I fear failure, I fear losing control. I love balancing between chaos and control with everything I do. I always have a fear of going one way or another, getting lost in something, or losing everything to get lost in. And I fear being a completely acceptable sheep in society.

almighty subsided

creation of tempting torment.

pages full of words from the past.
poems filled with make belief meanings
yet to one, is held sacredly.
Torn to shreds, this story means nothing.
Can't change my inhale or exhale.
Won't make the trees die, and the flowers wilt.
yet to one, it would be against all.

to go beyond the boundaries,
to run freely without restrictions
would be deceiving.
To do what feels natural
must be consulted.
To throw away the definition or
the religion of Christ
puts you in hell.

to one, its a symbol,
a promise.
to one, it is a sacrifice
a loyal appreciation.
yet to me, its nonsense.

to me, when permanent
tales are taken seriously
I smirk.

the something
that blocks the mind
from roaming,
the free thinking spirit.
one will hold dearly to that
but rip apart importance.
They'll destroy the touch,
feelling, warmth.
They'll ignore and let go
the real.
to them it's okay,
yet to me...
it's that that is hallowed.

Don't subside it all.


-feel blue, think green, shine yellow
adventure queen.

please write that down, you'll never want to forget this feeling.

to looking past what you see, and searching for more.

Crowd Surf Off a Cliff- Emily Haines

Rather give the world away than wake up lonely
Everywhere and every way I see you with me
All the babies tucked away in their beds
We're out here screaming,
"The life that you thought through is gone"
Can't want out, the ending outlasting the move
I wake up lonely

Are you directing the way... or forcing it?

enough.


guide   [gahyd] verb,guid·ed, guid·ing, noun
–verb (used with object)
1.  to assist (a person) to travel through, or reach a destination in, an unfamiliar area, as by accompanying or giving directions to the person

dic·tate    [v. dik-teyt] verb,-tat·ed, -tat·ing, noun
–verb (used with object)
1.  to prescribe or lay down authoritatively or peremptorily; command unconditionally

pun·ish   [puhn-ish]
–verb (used with object)
1.  to subject to pain, loss, confinement, death, etc., as a penalty for some offense, transgression, or fault

en·force   [en-fawrs, -fohrs]
–verb (used with object),-forced, -forc·ing
1.  to impress or urge (an argument, contention, etc.) forcibly; lay stress upon: He enforced his argument by adding details.