I thrive 'cause of you

There is a moment that I search for in everyone, there is a warmth that fills inside me, healing the doubt I had mostly in myself but in you too.  I strive to find this moment as soon as I can, so that I can trust you and believe you and care about what you have to say.  I love this moment, I am relieved when I'm drowning in reasons are answers, provided by your presence.  This second is what makes you real, alive, in depth.  The instant when I see you for the first time.  Not you're obvious appearance, but what you're made of; your structure, the pieces that keep you standing on emotional days.  I love the moment where I know you beyond words, where I understand your posture and hesitations, your contagious smile and mundane days.  
Hurt, always, lovely, pain, never, trust,cry, scream, cruel, words, lost, laugh, won, smile, smile, smile, alive now.

can i go back to the girl who thinks about...

no inspiration.  it's the worst! I feel like life is sooo hectic at the moment, with school, jobs and university decisions creeping up too! I feel like I need to figure out the next 20 years in the next 20 seconds! But I've been giving things a lot of thought, and my brain is so fried! Hopefully things die down for a bit so I can get my mind straightened out, because I miss my ridiculous train of thought.. normally i'm not swamped with the stress of universities and jobs and what not.. I'd like to just go back and think about... whatever.

Calendar Girl, just a few more days..

206 days
4952 hours
297149 minutes
17828994 seconds
I'll be walking La CHAMPS ÉLYSÉES soon enough xox

Breathe Again- Sara Bareilles

All those words came undone and now I'm not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again
I'll breathe again

Researching for my future?

And so it all begins...

Senior year, how ridiculous is that? Im taking my final classes in high school and within the next few months or maybe even weeks, I am supposed to know what I want to do with the rest of my life! I'm told to start looking at universities now!! gahh!!! it seems so surreal, I remember thinking how far I was from this in grade 11 and now it is just hitting me like a ton of bricks! I better get researching!!!

I'll let you know how that turns out...

Jar of Hearts- Christina Perri

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are