Untitled, Date & Time Unknown

Days fall,

I’m a mundane careless shrew.

So long as the beauty I crave

Blurs to an undying halt.

Seemingly,

Love has given up,

You’re no longer here

To caress me.

I’m ridiculed by the time passed,

Shared laughs only echo

In past memories.

Where are you?

I breathe only to

Revolt against naked regrets.

I sing yet

There is no dance without you.

I can’t give it up.

I care too much.

I need to smile with you again.

Hold me.

March 3^rd sometime

Stumbled upon.. amazing what I can find in my pile of poems.

the girl who barely said a word:

I'm not entirely sure what to think.  So much is going on in my life right now, that I feel like I'm constantly spinning.  I'm sure that even if I try to stop, try to catch a breath, even for a moment, everything will blast past me and I'll be more lost than before.  I feel overwhelmed.  I have things to worry about now that I've never had to before; I need to start thinking about where I am going to live next year, what university classes I am going to take, how I am going to save enough money for school this summer, and how I am going to hold it together leaving the one place I can call home.  Honestly, I'm freaking out. I can't decide if what I am worried about is valid or if I am all bent out of shape for nothing.  I realize that going off to school is an exciting step and I should be unbelievably smitten about the whole ordeal, but to be I feel like I have major preparing to do before reaching that point.  I am so happy at home right now, I have great friends, ones that live in milton, or belleville, or burlington, or smithsville, and of course oakville, some down the street, some near the lake, and I love them all.  Then I have my family, the people that I've never had to leave before.  I have so many great relationships here, and I'm sure I'll make more when I leave, but I am just in shock thinking about how I am supposed to be away from all this.   So much to think about, so much to do, so much school, so much coaching, and not enough time to catch up with everyone I'm going to miss the most.  I just can't believe I'm leaving.  I know I'll be back and its only for a few months a year, but things are going to change, people are going to change.  A part of me needs and wants this beyond belief, I want to see how I do on my own and who I become through this journey.  However the other part of my is thinking I'm finally happy, why now?  Now or Never.  I have to breathe, I know I'll be fine, and I'm about to jump into the best years of my life.. but I can't help but wonder if I can make the most of the next few months to avoid regrets in the next few years. Just a mini freak out, no big deal, I just need to calm down and enjoy today tomorrow and the next while :)

Take It All- Adele

Didn't I give it all?
Tried my best,
Gave you everything I had,
Everything and no less,
Didn't I do it right?
Did I let you down?

Maybe you got too use to,
Having me around,
Still, how can you walk away,
From my tears?
It's gonna be an empty road,
Without me right here,

But go on and take it,
Take it all with you,
Don't look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love,

Maybe I should leave,
To help you see,
Nothing is better than this,
And this is everything we need,
So is it over?
Is this really it?
You're giving up so easily,
I thought you loved me more than this,

But go on, go on and take it,
Take it all with you,
Don't look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love,

I will change if I must,
Slow it down and bring it home,
I will adjust,
Oh, if only,
If only you knew,
Everything I do,
Is for you,

But go on, go on and take it,
Take it all with you,
Don't look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it,
Take it all with you,
Don't look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love.