Something I'm not

You actually have the ability to make me hate who I am.  I work everyday, I go to school, I get into university, I get 2 jobs, I write, I'm happy, I try my best.  And all you see are my mistakes and tie things together that make me out to be something I'm not.   Sure, pull in tighter, see if i care.  Soon you'll see that I'm a great person.  You'll see that I smile for real reasons.  But for now, keep that disgusted look on your face... You're in for a surprise.