Stay

Stay.  Please stay with me.  I would hate to lose the memories, I would hate to not hear your voice when I wanted.  I miss you more than anything.  I'm afraid to fall, I'm afraid to be here without you.  You were an incredible boy, so young, free, positive, funny, ridiculous, and the best was your timing.  I miss having someone who just knew when I needed them.  I remember looking at my phone and seeing your name on the screen and think, wow how did he know.  I miss you.  Change is coming, and I'm terrified, I wish I had you to talk to , I wish I had someone to tell me they were there no matter what.  I know you are watching, and you are probably stoked for me, and I can't lie, I am so happy I'm here. But  I don't know how to be happy without you, I don't know how I'm supposed to stay positive when I want you here.  Three years ago, my heart was torn in two and you hold the dearest part of me.  I can't continue unless you come with me.. I want you to stay with me.