Am I a believer or a user in this raw world?

watching the world
through the eyes of
intoxication.

perceiving

complete regularity

through the lives of true believers

or freedom seeking users.

She speaks and
words appear in flawless grammar
the words are naturally keyed

as though it's
sane.

No mistakes no exceptions
The sentences form as
she forms her lips in
various shapes.

When she walks,

invading
the dark streets
there are these ridiculous
gruesome dragons.

chasing her,

They are multiplying too.
Fluorescent green and red
these terrifying monsters
raid our world.

wrap me up tight
she asks.
Pointing to the floral blanket

draped over the pot of gold

the flowers dance off the fabric

And grow into vines.

Tightly tangled in rainbow vines.

They stab at my body wanting

inside.

What if they carve out my heart?

or at least the broken pieces..

I yell at everyone.

Trying to save the shards trapped

inside.

But as sound escapes my throat

It does nothing else.

Silence literally takes over,

It's grey

and hot.

Smoke around me

and taking away all

importance.

Stealing my significance

and reasoning.

I can't see

I can't move

I can't hear

And the smell

is no longer there.

I'm not one for

making fine distinctions

however I know I'm better off

in this raw world.

-feel blue, think green, shine yellow

adventure queen.

We Are The World 25th Anniversary

Everyday citizens
everybody pitching in
Nou se mond la
nou se timoun yo
You and I
You and I
Uh, 12 days no water
wishing will to live
We amplified the love we watching multiply
Feeling like the Worlds end
We can make the World win
Like Katrina, Africa, Indonesia
and now Haiti needs us, they need us, they need us

Where is the Love?- Black Eyed Peas Ft. Justin Timerlake

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder

As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder

Most of us only care about money makin'

Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction

Wrong information always shown by the media

Negative images is the main criteria

Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria

Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema

Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity

Whatever happened to the fairness in equality

Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity

Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity

That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under

That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down

There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under

Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

Now ask yourself

Where is the love?

Lose Yourself- Eminem

This soul's escaping, through this hole that it's gaping

This world is mine for the taking

Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order

A normal life is boring, but superstardom's close to post mortem

Who decided this.. I want to see the world

dis⋅cern
[di-surn]
-detect with the senses

dis⋅cern⋅ing
[di-sur-ning]
-having or revealing keen insight and good judgment
-unobtrusively perceptive and sympathetic
-able to make or detect effects of great subtlety; sensitive


What does it mean to be unobtrusively perceptive? How do you perceive in a unobtrusive manner? Unnoticeable learning or building your knowledge without investigation? Is it keeping up to date with the 6 o'clock news? Are we perceptive if we are able to learn and contain information.. do we share it with others or keep it to ourselves? Am I perceptive if I take the time to get to know my relationships? If I truly look deep into the roots of the things like world issues, or solutions to my personal involvement.. Am I unobtrusively perceptive?? Who decides if you have discerning qualities? Who knows if you're able to provide good insight or the correct judgment? I'd like to believe that everyone chooses to get involved with something.. to become passionate and keen towards something that qualifies them as a discerning character.

what if.. I was a sixties girl?

I was born in the 90's. And have lived through most of the 90's and now.. the 21st century. So far, I'm a little disappointed. Not to sound ungrateful or ignorant. But I always think about.. later in life when my kids asked me what the 90's were like, with a glimmer of hope in their eyes.. and I'll answer with something along the lines of " You didn't miss out on much". I don't know if it's just because I was fairly young throughout the 90's or if they truly were dull. I mean, there was The Spice Girls and Backstreet Boys, but that doesn't drop many jaws!

I didn't realize how much I'd actually missed out on until recently. I just got thinking about the 60's. Names like Mick Jagger, Bob Dylan, Eric Clapton, Jimmy Page, George Harrison, Rod Stewart, Jimmi Hendrix, Stevie Wonder are a few that were popular in that time. The hippie era, it just seems so fun, I know I'm only looking at the positive, because I'm well aware there were huge negatives in that time. But based solely on music, and rock and roll, it sounded like a liberating time! I just love reading about it, and can't imagine the person I'd be if I was dropped into the sixties. I think I would have a good time.

However, I am proud of the person I am today and the 90's and 21st century has treated me extremely well. I just love imagining my life in different times. I wish I could say, "I don't remember the sixties!" What if I was like Patti Boyd and the classic love songs were written about me!

It's fun just to think about it..

who would you be if you were in the sixties???

Grab your tools, We're building a kingdom

I had my co-op interview today!! Everything went smoothly, and the lady was so nice. She asked me fewer questions than I'd expected, but I felt confident with all my answers! She told me I seem like I'm eager to learn and start working.. So TRUE! I'll be starting my co-op with Sharon Homes on the 18th of this month. There are a few things I need to get before I start.. I need a tool belt, a measuring tape, some nice leather gloves and a hammer! I do my safety training next week and then I should be ready to go!! So exciting. hopefully I don't make a fool of myself! Well I'm sure I will, I guess i should hope that the crew has a good sense of humor, because I am totally going to be the person who provides a good laugh!

Such Great Heights- The Postal Service

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles

In our eyes are mirror images and when

We kiss they're perfectly aligned

And I have to speculate that God himself

Did make us into corresponding shapes like

Puzzle pieces from the clay

True, it may seem like a stretch, but

Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled

Head when you're away when I am missing you to death

comfort zone.

So lately,
I've been talking to people and reading about people,
and I'm in awe.

I can't help but wonder,
will I run out of things to say?
I mean, I read about this girl who has
gone from one memorable moment to the next,
her life in retrospect is a
nonstop collection of
worthy stories.

I've heard of people who sink
way low, and miraculously
make their way to the top..
That's a story,
that's a life most wish to
learn about.

I read about women
in textbooks,
they either did something noble
or beat the odds.
Those stories sell.

There are the people who pass,
and they are honoured with
solid statues.
They must have impacted a number of
people.

Its almost better if you stoop real low..
at least then you have enough material to work with,
What if i just get bored?
Like, I have nothing interesting to share.

I listen to this girl speak,
with such detail about things I'm so far from.
She is replaying it in her mind,

in vivd colour and reliving each word, every syllable.
as I am trying to sketch it,
and I'm no artist.

I doodle her life in my mind,

completely inaccurate,

and I'm thinking,

She has so much ground covered in this world,
and i remain in my comfort zone.

It's evident

that I'll run out of words, and syllables worth reliving.

that my name will not be printed in the Canadian History text books.

No one will sculpt my body into an exquisite statue.

I'm tired of listening to people

and struggling to understand the basics of their lives.

I want people to sketch my life in their mind,

I want everyone to fail trying to relate to my stories.

I'll cover grounds people never dreamed of.

-feel blue, think green, shine yellow

adventure queen

moments happen when we all give and gain

"To most people, the saying "to use someone" carries a negative connotation, But I don't see it that way. To 'miss', 'over' or 'ab' use someone is negative. To use is necessary and if you can't be used.. then you're useless."

-Kanye West presents Thank you and You're Welcome with J.sakiya Sandifer

..in awe of you

sub-lime

inspiring awe, veneration, heroic or lofty feeling, and the like through grandeur

-high in excellence, majestic, noble

dreamy thinking

rev-er-ie

absentminded dreaming while awake
an abstracted state of absorption

won't you please please smile

dis-po-si-tion

a customary frame of mind; a nature or temperament; sweet disposition.

A disposition is a habit, a preparation, a state of readiness, or a tendency to act in a specified way.

I'm hanging on..she said to hold on

What reasoning do you look for in life?

Do you seek purpose at all?

Do you strive to live or

to live with purpose..

Are you part of life's impact

or are you an impact on life?

-feel blue, think green, shine yellow

adventure queen

Broken- Lifehouse

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

Cold Desert- Kings of Leon

I never ever cried when I was feeling down

I've always been scared of the sound

Jesus don't love me, no one ever carried my load

I'm too young to feel this old

Here's to you, here's to me

On to us, nobody knows

Nobody sees, nobody but me

youthful reverie

Departure..

a word so commonly used.

When I think of the word departure, I think of a train.

In complete solitude.

The idea of a moving train..

going from one place to the next,

no humble abode,

no fixed residencies.

The simplicity of a departing train..

carrying along hopes and dreams and

taking you on life's journey.

A sweet sorrow..

pain and love.

departing but carrying.

Just sitting on this moving train.

with tons of baggage,

yet no bags at all.

To know that you are

crashing towards your

shaky destination.

leaving behind everything

yet bringing along all that matters.

-feel blue, think green, shine yellow

adventure queen.

*late night wondering

green life continued.

I have now completed the third step in my Gorgeously Green program. Step three devotes itself to the body. You learn the Gorgeously Green yoga/fitness routines and sequences. It takes you out of the gym and into the comfort of your own home. I enjoyed learning new yoga poses and practicing the sequences. The author Sophie Uliano is a yoga instructor, so she did an awesome good with creating great workouts!

I'm now ready to start reading about the fourth step in the program. It's called Soulful Shopping. I'm excited to learn how to change my shopping habits, and make the right choices and the safest choices for the environment. From flipping through I've noticed this section is packed with great eco stores to check out and a great amount of information about the textile industry and so on. I will report back with details soon!

classy, catchy and always on my mind

I have a new song obsession!

It is absolutely adorable and obviously

worth listening too!

Here Comes Your Man- Meaghan Smith

..Your welcome!

17

My seventeenth year

His seventeen candles

Already

forty-four million

seven hundred

five thousand

six hundred

forty-five

seconds.

-feel blue, think green, shine yellow

adventure queen.

Grab your cheat sheet .. and clear out!

Talk about overwhelming! Poison, toxic, damage, carcinogens.. those are pretty powerful words. I just read about step two of the GG program. I cannot believe that most of the things I'm applying to my body are doing more damage to me and the environment than good. Step 2 consists of everything having to do with your exterior. I learned about the lotions I use, shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, nail polish, makeup. All my beauty products.. did you know that most women spend up to 400 hours a year doing their beauty routines. That is a lot of time we invest! And a lot of the time because most are unaware, we are poisoning our selves. There are so many materials used in our everyday products that are killing us and the environment. While reading section 2 of the book I'm told to go through all my beauty products and read the ingredients and make an educated decision whether the product stays or goes. What a huge task, although it is necessary. Using my cheat sheet, I plan to go through my shampoos, conditioners, deodorants, nail polishes and such and clear out everything that is hurting me and the planet. I also was introduced to some eco friendly beauty companies.. I liked Pangea Organics, Dr. Hauschka and Juice Beauty. Search them up!

And here is the cheat sheet, complete with all dangerous chemicals and things to avoid www.gorgeouslygreen.com/cheatsheet/

Next step: Clear out all my evil products, and avoid all the big complanies that have been lying to me. And move on to Step three, where the main focus is my fitness!

I can't wait!

I am becoming Gorgeously Green

Gorgeously Green written by Sophie Uliano, is a 8 simple step program to help you transform your life to one that's entirely earth-friendly . I've had this book for just under a year and I had only ever flipped through it. Last night I began actually reading it and became motivated to change my poor habits and start making little changes so that I can feel Gorgeously Green.

I completed the first step of the program last night. It's called Becoming Aware. For someone who is interested in sustainable living and such, I sure was behind on the facts. Mid chapter there is a checklist that you must complete. It includes things you should know about sustainable living. You're told to check off the things that you have in fact been practicing in your home.. lets just say I may be interested in the subject but i sure as hell have not been showing it. Later on in the section they tell you to go to their web site www.gorgeouslygreen.com.. and take a quiz, to see where exactly you're at in the eco-friendly life.. do you know your facts? I was then told by the automated response that I have a long long way to go. That was a slap in the face! So I am now determined to get informed and start sharing my knowledge, I want to be green.

I am becoming Gorgeously Green

I am becoming Gorgeously Green

I am becoming Gorgeously Green

I'll continue to post as I complete this eight step process and share struggles, facts, statistics, and tips!