Such a surreal feeling. You know when you can't wipe the smile off your face, even if you tried? I wouldn't give up this warm feeling for anything, I feel like I've been waiting to feel this way for a while. It's weird, so much shit had been falling apart around me, and normally by getting involved I would fall in to a dark slump, and become a bigger mess than the people around me, its a weakness I have.. I care and dwell over everything and I let it beat me up. But lately, I've been handling everything, I've been doing my best to be there for people and give advice, or just listen, anything really, I'm keeping my grades up and I'm only slightly stressed out haha! This is a CHANGE. For those people who know me well, they know that I can get pretty out of control, That I have the ability to truly turn into an insane monster, simply nuts. But I'm happy, and I'm coping, and I'm helping.. and I feel strong, I feel appreciated and I feel good! I'm smiling... who knew.
...I feel a dance party coming on
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