To my lovely..

To my lovely,

I want you to know
that I know you're struggling.
I can see you're struggling.
It's ok.

You're beautiful,
so bold, you're my girl.
Yet, you keep so distant from me!
I promise you I'm ready to squeeze you.

Ask for help,
tell me whats on that brain of yours.
I'm tired of small talk.
This isn't us.

We are supposed to be 
how we always are.
I want to watch ridiculous movies,
and have tea, 
talk about boys,
joke about what is our lives.

I complain and you justify,
I justify, and you dig for the truth.
You tell the truth, and I return it.
We love, we laugh, we're us.

I know I haven't been 
all there either, but 
apart of me doesn't
want to touch all the nonsense.
Maybe you don't want to either.

But I know nothing.
I don't know how your night 
out was.
You don't tell me funny stories,
Do you forget that I care?
The small things are what
makes a friendship,
so tell me when you embarrassed yourself,
or when you got way too drunk,
or when you forgot about your midterm.

I miss you,
and not because I'm here
and you're there
but because we aren't anywhere.

I'm lost without my friend.
Lets go to the baseball game

Sincerely,
me