I should

A daily challenge.
I go to sleep with you on my brain,
therefore,
I dream of you.
Then I wake up thinking about you.

I've been thinking about you.
To say the very least.
The worst part is,
is I don't like thinking about you anymore.

This special special pull
I had toward you,
feels awful now.
It is the reason I can't leave
And the reason why I liked you so
very much.

When I talk to you now,
its fake..
and I'm pretending.
This is turning into such a mess.

I need to leave.
But how do I do that,
when I can't shake the fact
that maybe it won't just be for now.

If I see you,
to talk this through
I'll stab you in the heart.
You'll know I'm leaving for good.

You've made me think that I can't leave you.
I can
And
I should

fuck.