I know what I don't deserve.

I now know.


I know what I don't deserve.


I can officially say, that my writing has been cherished in ways, I never thought possible.  Two of the most important people in my life today, have chosen to cherish my writing on them forever.  Two separate pieces, two separate stories and two completely different love shared between us.  My writing has been tattooed on two amazing girls.  I know that this is something that I do not deserve.  I don't write to change lives, in fact I started writing to save myself.  I never thought that in all the time spent pouring out emotion and defining my feelings, i would be sitting here today, knowing that my writing is held so dearly. I can honestly say that I do not deserve such praise, such honour, that I do not write for reaction.  I write because I care.  I write because I cannot get my thoughts straight.  I write because I love you.  I write because without writing, I can't define what my life is... what your life is.  I write because i'm reaching out. I'm writing because I love to.  I do not deserve these results.. no one asks for this.  But if i lost it.. if i questioned the meaning of my writing, if it was all un clear.. i would be without a doubt devastated. dead.


Losing something you don't deserve..
It's painful.