unstoppable

holly shit! everything needs to stop! stop stop stop! Clearly, CLEARLY I am insane! absolutely effed in the head, and unable to just relax and not freak out over every little moment in my life.  "what do you want?".. i have no friggin clue! I'm not sure if I should even repeat the thought I have in my head.  Judging by the speed of my fingers tapping on this keyboard I can totally spare you the worry and say HAY YA I'm totally nuts.  I cant even entertain an idea for more than 1 second.  But I have to change.. I just have to relax, because I have people who care and people I care about.  So I have to just breathe and let everything play out.. because in like 21 days.. my whole life is going to change.. so I am going to do whatever I need to from now on to enhance my time here. I don't see how I can possibly resist.  I don't know ..I just feel.